go through things. grow through things.
pov: your toxic traits are isolation and avoidance but your love languages are quality time and physical touch
Today I wish I could wake up with you in my arms, to feel your skin on mine and let my heart be soft and free, but instead I’m simply left with my own patience and memory
Yes, he is not a cheater but do you know what makes him a traitor? It’s when he already knew who’s next after you while you are still in the process of moving on - Ken Ogbinar
In my opinion you ruined your own relationship you have no business scrolling down his social media accounts and by checking you found out this little interactions and got yourself paranoid and cause you got paranoid you reflected that energy onto your SO and probably got fed up instead of looking for something to spice it up and work it out you subconsciously pushed him away towards the other woman you operated in fear so you reap* what you sow - anonymous
Yes, he is not a cheater but do you know what makes him a traitor? It’s when he already knew who’s next after you while you are still in the process of moving on - Ken Ogbinar
𝗛𝗘 𝗗𝗜𝗗𝗡'𝗧 𝗖𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗧 𝗕𝗨𝗧 𝗛𝗘'𝗦 𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗟𝗟 𝗔 𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗜𝗧𝗢𝗥 😔
My boyfriend left his phone open as he took a shower. Out of curiosity, I opened his phone and accessed all of his social media accounts.
There, I found out that he never entertained other girls and he never bothered to respond on their flirty messages. In other words, there were no signs of cheating at all.
As his girlfriend, I couldn’t help but to smile in satisfaction. I continued scrolling down his newsfeed and upon scrolling, there’s a picture of a woman who completely caught my attention.
I stalked the woman’s account and I was surprised knowing that my boyfriend always filled her posts and pictures with “heart reactions” and he even commented, “ganda naman”. The woman also responded, “thank you”.
For the first time in years, I got alarmed and somewhat a bit threatened.
What I saw that day completely disturbed my mental state. I know it was just a small thing and I should not put a malice towards their mini interaction in social media but my anxiety couldn’t handle it.
From that day onwards, I started to overthink. I became so paranoid.
Months passed, I could feel my boyfriend’s cold approach towards me. He became so distant, he’s near yet I couldn’t feel his warmth and presence.
He became more secretive and it felt like there’s something part of him that I wasn’t allowed to step on.
Out of paranoia, I opened my boyfriend’s account once again. I know I am invading his privacy but I’m too desperate to know what is happening why he’s acting so cold lately.
I stalked the account of the woman who got me jealous and they had no conversation at all, but they are talking in the comment section while praising each other’s existence.
That day, I laughed while droplets of tears escaped my eyes.
Yes, my boyfriend is not a cheater but I always wonder how would it feel when someone loves you right. Someone who would make you feel that you are special, that you are the only woman who’s beautiful in his eyes.
Each day, my anxiety is getting worse and it affected our relationship.
I love my man but I don’t want to be selfish, because I knew to myself that he’s just waiting for me to let go of him.
That’s why, I decided to break up with him and ended our three years relationship.
It hurts walking away from the man you love, but what hurts the most is when he did nothing to chase and fight for me to stay.
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After two weeks of break up, I found out that he’s already dating with the same woman I stalked in facebook.
There, I’ve realized that small things can be big. Those small interactions of them in social media is already a warning which I failed to notice and those little red flags which I chose to ignore.
I’ve already accepted that we broke up, but I still can’t accept how we ended.
I felt so betrayed!
Yes, my man is not a cheater but do you know what makes him a traitor?
It’s when he already knew who’s next after you while you are still in the process of moving on.
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✍️ Words by: Ken Ogbinar
“Don’t worry when I argue with you. Worry when I stop - for that means there’s nothing left to fight for.”— Unknown
